Ergh. How do I start this? I felt like a douche when I wrote that. So... I really don't think I was in my right mind at that moment or something. I think I just got... over-excited and to state it simply, pissed. I probably got an art block, got very angry, then felt stupid and ... idk. So yeah.

The final thing. I am MAYBE deciding to stay. I really do love DeviantART too much!! xD

So yeah. Thank you for all the support! Can you believe I am almost up to 4,000 pageviews!!!

Thanks. Annie

Also, don't you just LOOOVEE my new journal page?! It's beautiful!!! Look at the bottom, the person's username is down there!! Go download it!! x]


Dear Deviantart,

I have been thinking while drawing [link] I am really bad and never seem to improve. Also, it's not like I can ever be a professional artist when I grow up. Art to me is only a hobby.

I try so hard to improve, but I am obviously not getting anywhere. I am on my way to become a pediatrician, so I should start focusing on that now? I don't even know what I want to become in the future.

Even if I continue art, it's not going to get me anywhere. There is too much compotition in this world. There is no way I can compete against all of them. Whenever I look at good art, I don't feel happy anymore, I feel depressed. My art looks like crap next to them.

I want to say sorry to all the great artists I look up to. I can't believe I won't be seeing anymore great artworks soon. Also, I feel like I keep dissapointing everyone that sees my work. I love you guys so much!! It's like... a art family. ^^ Especially Lynne, who has become one of my closest friend on deviantART, and the amazing Sandara. She always influences me. She also tollerates my annoying notes to her. She has always been my digital drawing god. Also, I absolutely love . She amazes me everytime with her animal pictures.

I plan to leave when I finish with all my art trades and requests. I can't leave with things unfinished. And *sandara I will try to send your pictures soon. Though they might be very dissapointing. I don't think it's possible to forget about this place. With all the great artists and the great friends.

I am saying this to deviantART. My last farewell to this place before I leave. My last glance at a colorful, realistic, dream world.

Bye.
Love, always,
Annie